You know how much I love sunflowers
but you always give me roses
You know I love the fragrance of the sunflowers
but you love giving me roses
You know I love yellow
but you always choose the red one
You know everything about me
but you choose not to remember
That’s why I always pretend that I like you for giving me roses
with a fake smile
but you never see it in my eyes
because you always choose what makes you happy
and you always prioritize yourself for being happy
I just came home
And you called.
It was the quarter to 7 p.m.
“I’m so sleepy,” I said
“You just went home and you’re now sleepy?” you replied
It was a nice conversation
You teased me about how deaf I am on call phones and etc…
And I also tried to teased you but went epic
“The stars so wonderful and nice,” I said while looking at them
I heard how you sighed and it was very sad
“The are no stars here,” you said
Our destination is too far, for now.
You promised you’ll come back next month
And I believed you –
Because I know you will come back for me
We shared thoughts
We teased each other
And went silent… a comfortable silence
The call was ended.
Toot toot toot
Seconds later, you called again
And the feels is still the same… You made my heart beat fast
You made me smile
You made me happy
It’s horrible! You met someone and adore him so much. You both enjoyed each other company. Afterward, your relationship with him leveled up: has a label or more than friends. And then, you both decided to marry each other. So, it comes up with engagement first.
You were both in love, so in love. His laughs were the music in your ears. His smiles were the one thing you want to see every day. You know he shines your each day of your life. Everything was perfect – until you know this won’t work anymore.
He’s so busy with his business. You’re so busy writing. He’s busy with seminars or any meetings, and you’re busy enjoying. That time, you knew your relationship is slowly wrecking.
You met someone. A guy who doesn’t believe fairytales and romance. You answered a letter that was written 15 years ago. It was a letter from a broken hearted girl, a coward, who left her love of his life because she’s afraid to conquer the world with him. You met someone, and it was his grandson.
You both always fight in things about love. Love sucks, he said. If love always within in our hearts why would someone leave for themselves? he said. One night, you both talk and settled. Talked about how both of you love stars and the moon that shine. You talked and talked until you both kissed. You forgot the world. Just you and him.
You stopped yourself. You felt you were cheating because you know you’re engaged. You stared at him for a moment – and walked away.
You talked to your fiancé. You tried to talk to him but he’s still busy. You said you want to end your relationship with him and he asked why. You told him, this won’t work anymore. But he answered you – you like a relationship that is different with others. You want that even how far you both go you still don’t forget each other and get back to each other. And he did all of that. You answered I’ve change.
You were invited to the party. You met that guy who doesn’t believe in love again. You know there’s this feeling when you’re near at him. Your heart beats so fast and while you’re walking towards him there’s a music in your ears. You know this is different. You know this isn’t just nothing. You know this is it. You both hugged each other. You both stared each other. And kissed.
It’s horrible! You met someone, your first love, and you thought he’s the one. But you’ll never know when the true love comes.